Zdravia,

	as I started
	to get to know 
	your hard work
	and the arch of types.
	
	One evidence of my self
	came up and I thought
	it could be a topic
	for the members blog.
	
	Consider it if you like ..
	
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	ZDRAVIA
	
	Since I am able to re member
	my self here on Mama Zemia
	to associate to full fill
	my purpose.
	
	The lack of associate action
	and full fill ment automatically
	shifts me to ad diction, drugs,
	nasty graphics and in dust trees.
	
	And now I know..
	Pain fully 
	I found out.
	
	As soon as I find my self
	out of balance I go look for
	my person sabotaging
	my nature and straight
	to the pain why I actually
	unfollowed my path of
	just is.
	
	The question for me really is
	why I keep sabotaging my self?
	
	Turns out, the only place 
	I have ever been able to find
	my self in associate action is my nuclear
	family. Actually I am blessed,
	many people now are not even able
	to find associate action there.
	
	How ever, to full fill
	my purpose outside of my family
	I all ways put to gather people with out
	net, set the space so the associate action
	has the flow of its own, set it
	in a way it just is so only when
	members face other obstacles they
	are able to reject coming in.
	
	I have never called it associate action
	and members right, it was all
	ways the party full of friends.
	
	Remember the time, people met every
	Sunday in circles at woods in local to own
	or will age?
	
	Me neither. My grand ma
	and grand otec told me.
	
	I find out every day that such off line
	associate action is too much
	for people to handle..
	
	They are not able to respect them
	selves in the associate action. The first
	goes jabs, the second goes idiotic
	art-fiction and the third one tells me
	I am the only one from group
	that it makes sense to be with. He
	or she wants me completely for themselves.
	I have not been able to handle that so far.
	
	Or could it be I do it wrong?
	
	And that is exactly where I go off.
	I sabotage my self as I do things for
	the inoneyouall wanting me for them selves
	the things that he or she should
	under take them selves. Here is where
	my inner prostitute comes in. I feel like one.
	
	What I need is to face the fear of
	not having anyone to associate with
	To face the fear of being rejected.
	
	Be cause to face the contra diction 
	I need to cut off 
	the inoneyoualls who want me just 
	for them selves to compensate for
	their lack of inner respect.
	
	JUST IS
	
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	Zemia - Earth;
	otec  - dad papa;
	inoneyouall - in one you all in stead of in divide you all - individual.